Updated: Jan 10, 2022
How many times in your life have you thought, “If only I could go back to the beginning (of any situation) but take with me the life lessons, experiences and any wisdom I now have. Wouldn’t that be wonderful? What would I do differently or keep the same?”
Well, it occurred to me that is exactly where I’m at now! As 2022 was ushered in last weekend, I experienced a true epiphany regarding where I am in life, and a spiritual burst of energy that can only come from above!
You see, I retired from a very long career in banking that chose me, I didn’t choose it. I sort of “bloomed” where I was planted, needed a job to support myself and had some kind of knack for it. As the years flew by, I became a wife, mother, grandmother and a bank executive. I have no idea why it chose me other than my path crossed with so many amazing people from different walks of life ranging from the people I worked with to a diverse group of customers.
However, there was always, always, the musical/artist side of me. Ever since I was little, I sang, acted out skits, played piano and guitar by ear and had a band or two along the way. I was involved in choir, musicals, and very active in the music program at my church. I often wondered why I didn’t choose a career in music, and the only answer I could come up with was that I just didn’t see it as a way to make a living. My parents were from the depression era and the message that was ingrained in me was that a person had to have a good paying job to survive.
So, as I sat reflecting in my backyard last weekend, a quiet voice whispered, ‘Hit the reset button. You’re there.” I am back at that point before banking. I retired last May and have put a lot of energy and time into my music efforts, and of course, wondering if it will be worth it. The spiritual message I got declared, “Yes! It’s worth it! These are the seeds God has given you! You do the work. He’ll do the rest!”
And “worth it” can mean so many things. The joy I receive from not holding back my creative energy is huge. I do have to tell my inner critic to be quiet and go stand in the corner several times a day, because I know this is what I am supposed to be doing.
I am very grateful that I “got” the message so vividly! I’m going back to music "work", now, to do my part. God will take care of the rest!
Love and Blessings,